\(^.^)/ Live. Love. Believe. (~^_^)~

I feel like i have been kind of negative lately. 

I’m not sure where all of this negatively is coming from.

Actually, I think I do know, but I’m not sure I want to admit it.

Time to work harder on myself.

EXPLODE

MY HEAD FEELS LIKE ITS GOING TO EXPLODE.

Not just because of being sick,

I have finally come to the conclusion that I am done with BOYS for a while. Just DONE. 

Right NOW. It’s ME time.

RIGHT NOW. It’s going to be ALL ABOUT ME.

And it is going to stay that way for a while. 

I LOVE ME. Because only I can understand ME. And even when I don’t understand ME, it’s okay, because NO ONE else can, so it’s okay. 

I hate being reminded of the little things. They frustrate me because those are the things I miss the most. I don’t want to be missing you anymore. Go away.

TERRIFIED S***LESS

Yes. I am terrified. Today, I wasted my entire day because I was so upset about my poor performance on my Chinese midterm today. So I watched my sorrows away on YouTube and I watched some Chinese videos. That just made me more terrified because I realized that in less than a month, I will in all by myself in a foreign country where I am not allowed to speak English and where I hardly know the language. I do not know how I will survive two months there all by myself. I want to cry. I want to slap myself for being way too ambitious. I am getting cold feet. I don’t want to go anymore. I want to stay here where I know I will be just fine. LET ME STAY. 

Stepping outside the box is TERRIFYING. I know that I am terrified now but I will regret it so much later if I skip out because I am too much of a coward to start my adventure anew, afresh, all by myself. I am going to look back three months from now and see this post, and I will tell myself how glad I am to have trampled my fears into the ground and go to China and experience everything that I experienced. 

Emotions are so interesting. It is amazing how powerful they are and can be. It is amazing how much the human being is dictated by their emotions. Even against their sense of morality, their emotions will justify wrong and make it all right for a second. And just in that second, so many things can happen. One little action can say more than all the words in the world can express. 

fartingunicornss:

impossible

fartingunicornss:

impossible

allaboutchinese:

好可爱!So cute!

allaboutchinese:

好可爱!So cute!